If you were to ask me what I saw myself doing this time next year, I wouldn't have a clue. I'm leaving high school in a few months time and instead of having a better sense of where I want to go, I feel as lost as ever. My initial plan was to take 12 months off and allow myself time away from the classroom but upon further reflection I realised just how hard it'd probably be for me to return to school after a break that long. When I wrote my post explaining why I was so keen on taking a gap year, I wasn't really thinking ahead. I thought a lot about the break itself without really considering where I would go once the year was over. I'm scared that after I finish my gap year, I won't have the motivation/drive to get back into studying. And since I know I want to go to Uni and experience the student life there, I don't know if it's worth the delay.
Next year feels like its approaching too fast, too soon and I don't know how I'm supposed to make all these life-changing choices in such a short space of time. It feels like so much is riding on each decision from here on out which makes everything to do with next year much more daunting. Now that I've decided I do want to go to Uni in 2018 and I have some idea of what I want to study, I have to figure out whether or not I want to stay or leave my home city. This is something that I'm constantly turning over in my mind. I love where I live yet know that I can probably afford to lose some of the reliance that I have on my parents. While studying, you're guaranteed to save quite a bit of money while staying at home. On the other hand, you're guaranteed to gain a stronger independence in a new place surrounded by new people. It's choices like these that are getting me worked up about next year and when I'm neutral about both options, I almost wish that someone would come up to me and tell me what I needed to do right then and there.
That's definitely not the way to go though. No matter what I'm feeling now, I want it to be me who decides how next year pans out, not someone else. It is up to me what happens next, and as scary as that sounds, I know that I'll make it work one way or another.
How did you/do you feel about leaving high school? Let me know down below!
I can totally understand this! I didn't know whether to stay at home or more to university and I'm so glad that I went because I'd never live at home again! I hope you decide what you want to do x
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Thank you Kayleigh! It's nice to hear about other people experiences. I hope so too! :-) AnnieChanie
DeleteI so get this! As you get older things seem to move quicker and the decisions we make have mire weight to them. But it's important to realise we can only do our best so don't stress! Ask other's for advise if you are really struggling with making decisions xx
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Thank you for the advice Amina! I've definitely been turning to other people for ideas and suggestions but I guess ultimately the choice is up to me. I'm glad I'm not the only one who feels this way about big decisions. AnnieChanie
DeleteI was really excited to leave high school as I didn't have the greatest experience there at times. It was a little scary starting college but I loved how much more free and grown up college felt. It's the same for uni like even though my first year has been hard, I'm really enjoying the independence of being away from home etc.
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Thank you for your comment Carla! And for sharing how you felt about leaving high school and going to Uni. :-) AnnieChanie
DeleteAs someone who is getting their masters degree, I, too, have similar anxieties like you've written here. I'm often incredibly uncertain and scared for what the next chapter of my life would be. Leaving high school can be scary but think of this transition as a turning page for more exciting experiences to come!
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Thanks so much for commenting! It makes everything feel a lot less scary when I know I'm not alone in feeling the way I do. That's a much better attitude to have towards leaving high school! I'll definitely remember that! AnnieChanie
DeleteI remember these exact feelings. When I graduated high school I wanted to take a gap year desperately. My parents wouldn't let me. I ended up transferring three times before finally settling in at a school I liked, going for a degree I really wanted.
ReplyDeleteIf you don't take a gap year, my advice is to attend a low-cost school and take core credits that will transfer well. This will help a lot if you decide later that you want to pursue studies elsewhere :)
Wow Erica, thank you so much for the advice! I really appreciate you sharing this with me. I've gone to several careers advisors at school however this is probably the best tip I've gotten all year. Thank you! AnnieChanie
DeleteI can totally relate to you! It's a big step and not easy to decide! Best luck on your way!x
ReplyDeleteThanks so much for the comment Anne! I'm glad you could relate! :-) AnnieChanie
DeleteI completely understand I'm so scared and don't want to leave school! awesome post and best of luck xx
ReplyDeleteThanks Aoife! I know you're about to start your last year of high school so I hope things go well for you too! AnnieChanie
DeleteI left high school many, many years ago. I would suggest meditating and really taking time to think about what you want out of life. What do you value independence or the support of your family close by? This is the next natural step in life. You're ready just believe in yourself and leap!
ReplyDeleteWow Shelanda! Your comment has really got me thinking! I'll definitely take what you've said into consideration. That's so sweet of you to say. Thank you so much. AnnieChanie
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